There are those days and weeks when it all feels like too much, and I'm there right now. I am not looking for pity, but hope that by getting these things off my chest, I'll feel a little better. And maybe someone going through something will read this and know they're not alone. Because it happens to all of us.
I injured my back, so instead of working out 4-5 days a week, I've worked out 5x in the past month. I've gotten sick a total of 4x in 2013. I am way behind on getting all my tax documents organized.
CrossFit is the thing I looked forward to at the end of a long day and I haven't been able to go on a regular basis for a month. This has been very, very difficult for me. I know I've lost a lot of strength and can't wait until my back is better and I'm able to return to my usual routine. I feel like I've lost a little piece of who I am. I need that workout at the end of the day. I miss it.
I'm sick. Again. Congested, exhausted, and just blah. I am so grateful for the fact that I am generally a very healthy person, but this week, my stupid cold feels like a lot to handle.
This may seem superficial to some, but these freezing temps are really starting to get to me. It's the first day of spring and is currently 17 but feels like 3. This feels like a cruel joke, and this California girl needs some warmth and sun. Now.
I haven't stayed on top of keeping all of my records for 2012, and now I have a week and a half to get everything together for my accountant. My own fault, so I suppose I can't complain. I just don't know when/how to get it all done. Taxes are my enemy.
Then there's work for TEG, graphic design projects, finishing my apartment for my upcoming home tour, trying to schedule a trip to LA (which means arranging care for Buddy, being able to borrow my mom's car etc...), and basic day to day things feel impossible right now. Sorry for being such a downer.
I promise I'll be back to my usual mostly positive self in no time. If I could just regain the ability to breathe out of my nose within the next 24 hours, have my back heal completely sometime soon, and receive a sign that winter will end one day, that would be phenomenal.
And it's not all bad. I am fortunate enough that I can work from bed when I'm not feeling so well. Commuting in this cold would likely be the end of me. Looking forward to date night with Gina, Lindsey, and our boys on Friday. And I have a feeling someone might make an especially delicious breakfast for me this weekend. ;)
Things are looking up already.
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I hear you about the never ending winter! I'm in Pittsburgh and I have not seen any signs of change yet! I hope you get better quick!
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totally there, too... i even stopped for a bacon egg and cheese from dunkin donuts this morning to brighten my day and my window was frozen shut, so i had to open my door to order from the drive through and then again to pay! this too shall pass, as they say, but nice to have a reminder that we are never alone!
ReplyDeleteHang in there! It's totally understandable to feel down. Some nasty weather and and even nastier cold can get the best of us. And not being able to workout and have the physical and mental release that working out comes with, I totally get it your frustration and pent up energy. But don't worry, the sun will come out tomorrow, bet your bottom dollar on tomorrow.... :)
ReplyDeleteFeel better! Sometimes we just get those months. It happens. You'll be back on track and feeling 200% in no time.
ReplyDeleteAnd NEVER apologize for these posts. We're all human and can help each other through it!
You pretty much can't win against this ever-changing weather. Hang in there! Its the first day of Spring!! Its bound to warm up soon enough!!!
ReplyDeleteOh dear Feel better!! I've been there and honestly I'm waiting for the other shoe to fall right now. I've been sick already twice in 2013 and it seems every time I get into a great workout groove routine I injure something...But from experience trust me, it does get better! Your back will start to feel better and yes the workouts will be a little harder when you first get back on the saddle but you'll be back to yourself in no time!!
ReplyDeleteThere is a cheesy song from the late 90's from Chumbawamba that is called, "I Get Knocked Down, but I get up again" and it really is a great motivator! =P
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Feel better! And I think it is totally healthy that you shared your thoughts on feeling down via this blog. I like blogs that serve a dose of reality — not everyone can be all awesome decor, fashion, food, etc. all the time. Appreciate the honesty, and hope you're already on the mend!
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Oh my goodness I am feeling the EXACT same way right now! Allergies are terrible... and I pulled a muscle in my back this weekend so it hurts when I breathe in... overwhelmed and overworked. Thanks for letting me know that I'm not the only one. Hope you and I get over these blues quickly!! I have a feeling that the sunny days ahead can only help!
ReplyDeleteBack injuries are the worst. I can actually say 'I know how you feel' after injuring my lower back last year after pushing my strength training too far with my personal trainer. It's difficult to feel like you are doing the best for your body and health and then end up injuried. Take your time recovering. Don't think about the strength you are losing, but the needed rest your precious back needs!! You'll be back on top of your game soon!!!
ReplyDeleteI hear ya! I should have been training for a century bike ride June 1, instead I have been sick from February 1 till into March. Everything suffered, including my blog, training was out of the question. I started a new job. I hope now that spring is here things will reset themselves. I am ready. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteI hear you. I've been like this for the past month. The (not) working out is the worst. Even little bits of movement help your mind and body, I've found. Have you tried a few minutes of yoga here and there? When your head clears up of course. Just remember that sunny, warm weather will be here soon and when it's summer in Chicago, we all forget about days like today! Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteGlad to know I'm not the only still getting together tax stuff. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteHang in there girl, Everything will get better soon!!!
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I feel your pain on being sick too many times already this year! I just flew home from a trip and of course have a sinus thing going on for like the 3rd time this year! If I could only figure out how to airtravel-proof my immune system. Despite the ridiculously cold first day of Spring in Chi, at least we see the sun today! Small victory!
ReplyDeleteHi lady, I just wanted to let you know that I, myself, am a CPA and my taxes are not going smoothly this year, to say the least. Don't fret. It happens to the best of us.
ReplyDeleteChin up buttercup! You'll be back in the saddle before you know it. Love you and looking forward to seeing you Friday.
ReplyDeleteFeel better pretty girl. Sometimes we just feel that way. The world has a way of working itself out though, I promise. Take a deep breath and revel in the feeling of love from all of us! We're so happy to follow along on your life's journey, no matter where that takes you.
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Oh, Danielle...I can relate. I feel your pain. I hurt my knee back in February and have not been able to run since. This is torture for any runner!! Running is my therapy, my release, the one thing I look forward to being able to do on a daily basis. Although I've somewhat kept up with my workouts, it's just not the same and I'm starting to feel out of shape, not to mention I have some big races coming up that I need to be training for. I am just getting over a horrible head cold and this Chicago weather is definitely playing a number on me, as well. At this point...to hell with Spring, give me Summer! ha! Throw two kids and a husband into the mix, work, starting a business, all the while, juggling the daily tasks that need tending to like cleaning, cooking, homework, etc. Life can definitely seem crazy, extremely overwhelming! But boy, can it be just as beautiful! It can be difficult to put things in perspective when we're feeling down and out and of course we know that some have it much worse, but darn this still sucks. So I understand where you are coming from. Cheers to injuries that will heal, health that will recuperate soon enough, and those darn responsibilities, although they will never cease to exist, we cheer for the joys we will feel in, between and around them. Hope you feel better soon my friend!! -Rocio
ReplyDeleteI haaate being sick, especially when your nose is stuffed up and you can`t taste your food :( Hope everything will be looking up soon, though!
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Being sick...sucks. You are not alone with that. Just know that spring will come, your back will get better, taxes will be filed and you'll be back in shape in no time because muscle memory is a wonderful thing. Hang in there Danielle. You are a wonderful woman with a great spirit and the universe know that. :)
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Yikes! I hear you!! i am a real beast when I don't get to work out! I hope you feel well fast. Everyone has had this lingering cold! It stinks but I feel like it is the dark before the light (I am sure now that that came out, that its not at all a saying!) hang in there! Indiana feels your pain! We are like eskimos here! The deep thaw takes all of spring so we never really even see it anyway!
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Oh no!! :( Take some time to get some rest and get your strength back! :)
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I want to echo the others...never apologize for this type of post!! In fact, it probably endears us readers to you even more. It's nice to know the perfect worlds of our bloggers really are a little grey sometimes.
ReplyDeleteWinter is such a bummer, isn't it?! I'm in St. Louis and we had one day of 50's and now it's back to 30's...that little sneak peak has made it even harder to deal with!
Good luck to you on getting better. It seems like there are lots of us who have been in a funk lately, including myself. Looking for a new job (in my case) is never an exciting thing- it's so daunting and scary!!
Feel better!
This might be the best advice I've ever given to anyone. (: Once you start feeling better from your cold, switch out your toothbrush for a fresh new one. Often times we keep coming down with the same bug because of our toothbrush.
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Just found your blog today and love it! Fellow Chicago-an here and I am also getting pretty depressed about the weather...at least it was sunny today but still. All I ask for is a day in the upper 40's which would feel like summer at this point!!! Hang in there, hope you're feeling better soon! Being unable to workout is the worst.
ReplyDeleteAwww! You poor thing! Feel better, lady! Sounds like you have a nice weekend ahead of you - and I agree about spring! This sunny weather is so deceiving!
ReplyDeleteKeep your chin up, lady! Just focus on one thing at a time and do the best you can with the time that you have. My dog walkers do overnights if you're looking for someone to help with Buddy - they're amazing!
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