I Have No RegretsWednesday, October 24, 2012
In my early - mid 20s, I felt so lost. I did not know who I was, what I wanted, or where my life was going. I am sure that many of you can relate or have related to what I went through, especially when we see so many women with their dream jobs and businesses of their own. We are left scratching our heads (or sitting in the closet crying with a gallon of ice cream) wondering how we're supposed to figure it all out. I kept telling myself that one day I'd use what I went through to help others. I did not know when or how, but that was my plan. Just a few years later, we've done it with a little something called The Everygirl.
My life has changed so much the past few years–so much that in the best way possible, I barely recognize it anymore. I moved from LA to Chicago. I went from running one business to two. I have a business partner. We have interns. My last apartment was featured in Rue Magazine and I am trying to finish my new apartment for not one but two home tours. I struggled with working out and feeling good about myself throughout my 20s, but found CrossFit five months ago and haven't been the same since. I've never felt better. I went from being a vegetarian to following a paleo diet and am a week and a half into the 60 day paleo challenge. My mom sold her house which was in our family since the day I was born and finally, great aunt Rose has been slowly losing her mind. It's a lot to process.
And there's more. My 20s came to an end last month, and my the relationship I was in throughout my 20s came to an end. We haven't lived in the same city for two years and haven't seen each other in almost a year, so I suppose it was over before we made it official. I found myself single for the first time in my adult life, and while it was a very big change (and not always easy), I feel like I have adjusted and that I'm doing very well.
I am s-l-o-w-l-y learning to find some balance in my life. I worked nights and weekends the first half of the year, but have been taking weekends off since summer, and it's been lovely. The thing is–there is always something to do, which can be a little overwhelming. There's the social media–Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter for both myself and The Everygirl. The newsletter. The submissions inbox. My inbox. Our (wonderful) interns. The editorial calendar. Conference calls. Photo shoots. Photo editing. Blog design. Logos. Other graphic design projects. Collaborations. Events. CrossFit. The list goes on.
I fell into this world and while my life is a little crazy right now, I have no regrets. Financially–it's scary. I work for myself and always have a fear that the money will just stop coming in. I worry about the future. Ok–I worry about everything. I'm working on this one! But I feel like we're doing something great. Something worthwhile. Every single time someone emails or stops me to tell me how much they love TEG, my heart skips a beat. And there are so many good things happening for The Everygirl. Just four months in, we made it to Forbes. And within the past eight months since we launched, we've partnered with Random House, Kate Spade, Gap, Home Depot, Banana Republic, Rue, and Career Builder. And we were featured in the Nov issue of Chicago Home and Garden. It feels pretty damn amazing.
It has been a crazy few years, but I am excited/nervous to see how it all unfolds. To watch The Everygirl grow. To continue to grow as a person. To meet the man of my dreams. I'm so lucky to be healthy, to have these businesses, wonderful friends, this blog, a supportive family, and to have found a form of exercise that has completely changed my life (you had to know I'd mention CrossFit, again). While everything often feels as if its up in the air, it also feels like it's all slowly coming together. I guess that's part of the journey. I know I'll figure it out and I truly believe that anything you're this passionate about is worth fighting for. And all of this? So worth it.
If you find yourself where I was years ago, or feeling a little lost at times (still facing that now), or just completely overwhelmed/don't know where your life is going, know that you are not alone. We're all trying to figure it out. Just continue to stay true to yourself, follow your heart, and live a life without regrets.